A predicament? Initially, I didn’t think so.
Rather, I thought it was a series of unfortunate events.
After my teenage daughter experienced two gut wrenching
episodes of kidney stone attacks in one week, one requiring a trip to the ER
and the other a hospitalization for pain …
I fell out of bed and broke my nose.
It’s rather embarrassing, really – and sad. What forty-seven year old mother falls out of
bed?
I’m not sure what happened.
The last thing I remember before hitting the floor was
saying to myself, “I am getting a headache.
I think I better get out of bed and make a pot of coffee.”
Then the next thing I heard – felt – was a crunch across my
face.
I jumped up and ran to the bathroom sink, screaming, “I
broke my nose! I broke my nose!”
My husband was gone. My children came running. Visions of Marsha Brady getting hit with a
football on an ancient episode of the Brady Bunch danced through my head.
With swollen nose, purplified (my word) eyes and an equally
bruised ego, I slothed through the weekend, eventually finding myself in the
operating room, under general anesthesia for a closed reduction of my nasal
fracture.
It’s been one of those weeks.
In the midst of the chaos, I flipped through my Bible,
searching for some encouragement. Why
was I feeling like God was distant? Wasn’t it enough that I was trying to help
my daughter through a difficult time and care for the other children? Must the
injury be to my face? (Why was I being so vain?)
The Lord brought me to Psalm 46:5 (NIV), “God is within her,
she will not fall; God will help her at break of day.”
Not funny, Lord. I
know You have a sense of humor, but I’m not laughing. I fell at the break of
day, and I broke my nose. Were you
there?
So, this is my predicament – will I trust God that He loves me
or will I give up?
Will I see this as Holy Ground? Has the Lord brought me to this place of
humility in order to show me more of Him? Will I look for Him? Will I trust Him? Will I slip of my sandals
and face His radiance?
A friend posts on Facebook a note to me, “God ‘nose’ what
you need.”
Now, I laugh. I
choose to trust and wait and see what He has for me, knowing that He ‘nose’
just what I need.
