Oh, dear reader, life sometimes really does seem insurmountable, doesn't it? So many details, strong and formidable road blocks at every turn, and the way up looks steep, treacherous, and plain old, impossible. How my heart aches for better days. It is late. I have been up working on paperwork for 2008, and more paperwork for 2009. I am tired, worn out, and feeling as if this life in the valley is too much.
So, I turned to God's Word, before turning in for the night (or the morning.) It is a stream of living, fresh nourishment that I am in great need of, especially at this late hour. And this is what I found in Isaiah 45:2-3:
"I will go before you and will level the mountains, I will break down gates of bronze and cut through bars of iron. I will give you the treasures of darkness, riches stored in secret places, so that you may know that I am the Lord, the God of Israel, who summons you by name."
I will rest, now, remembering that the mountain of uncertainties that lay before me are His to level, and He will break down gates that I feel are too big and strong to get through. Not only that, He has good things for me -- treasures that are stored in only these secret places. Treasures that could not be found any where else. Treasures unknown to me right now, but promised to me by the Lord Himself.
Lastly, this is all for me to truly know that He is the Lord who summons me by name. What an incredible reality for me right now, as I grieve and fear and weep; and now I shall sleep.